help me... ditch her...

i didnt get into the inter-house performing arts final...

and im fine with that...
but i'm losing everything...!!!

no one knows how i feel anyway...
and music and poems are the only good way of losing all that stress...
and also... when i play music or write poems... its like i know who i actually am...

usually im so confused... coz everyone always talks about 'being yourself'...
but i dont know who myself is... all i know is who i pretend to be...
and now everything seems to be working together to make me feel useless...
and everyone prefers her music coz its more modern...
what happened to classical?!
just coz i can only compose classical and prefer playing classical...
some people are so biased... prejudiced... etc...
so depressed...
help me...