new direction

because ive found a new direction
and its leading me to myself...
and its leading me to you...
im not looking back,
whats done is done,
thats what he said right?
his loss
xx

goodbye

you know what.
you thought that hurt.
it didnt.
you just lifted a giant weight from my shoulders.
but still, i feel weak without having to push it up again.
its the tears that make you strong,
it takes a courageous soul to let everything out.
and just like that brave hero i know,
im going to let you go.
goodbye
x

get out

Get out of my head !!!
i dont need you here...
i might want you there but still,
i dont need you...
youll just make everything worse than it already is...
and it doesnt help that my mind has gone into delete mode automatically and is deleting everything i never want to forget :(
just go away...
or we can start over fresh,
maybe thats what my mind wants
xx

real love

you know what i learnt???

solid, real, true love isn't always something that you can necessarily feel.

sometimes you don't feel it at all.

it's just the fact that you would let them go if it was what was best for them.

you would do whatever it takes to make them happy.
you don't want to change anything about that person -
they are perfect just the way they are.
loving someone is loving them unconditionally,
it isn't about anything reciprocal.
even if they don't love you back,
it's ok.
what makes it perfect is that they are there,
happy, smiling and perfect.
maybe it won't be like the movies,
but you'll know
xx

not when youre there

Ha!

you thought you could get rid of me that easily :P

and i thought i wouldnt have to see you again...

who knew that we'd have to see each other every week day?

and who thought that i would fall for your beautiful smile again...

or that my stomach would scream just when i look at you...

High school - a hell hole?

not when you're there

xx

new drum kit

Anson got his drum kit today

its gonna be really noisy in our house now

:S

limited edition tama kit

tom tom with sold taped on :P

mummy chillin on the sofa

:)

Anson rocking out

;)

anson take 2

with a really weird face :P

daddy looking oh so serious

anson take 3

bass drum :P

daddy assembling the drum kit

like a pro :P

mummy's sexy ass

anson - rock out peeps!!!

:P

anson rocking the house down

xx

bank holiday

Bank holiday Monday.

We went paintballing and then to Uncle Harry's later for dinner.

Uncle Harry's was Jordan's idea :P

but paintballing was like a family outing second bday party for Anson:

there were 10 of us, 3 families

chans x 4

arthurs x 4

bart and elise

:)

btw paintballing pics were taken by uncle clive

the dinner pics were taken by me and others on my camera

delta force paintball

jordan and cam

hit-man chan

everyone getting into the overalls and body armour etc

everyone take 2

cam and jordan

cam is anson's best friend :P

anson and i

:)

anson and i take 2

jordan, me, anson, cam, mummy and daddy

jordan, anson, cam, daddy

jordan, me, anson, cam and aunty loraine - cam's mum

aaw cam needs mummy's help to dress himself

:P

anson looking cute :)

me

cam, me and jordan with a mystery person...

the stig maybe?

nah, just anson

:P

elise and bart

oh no! what happened?!

lol

The A Team

the best movie of the year

director: Clive Arthur

Starring:

Anson Chan

Cameron Arthur

Jordan Arthur

Miki Chan

The A Team Divided

The Sequel

duh duh duh!

anson, cam, jordan and i

look at jordan's serious face

lol :L

elise and bart

come on everyone

those hoppers arent going to fill themselves!

elise and bart again :)

just checking

(but really taking extra :P)

jordan, anson, daddy, me and mummy

rationing out paintballs

finally people are working

safety briefing

i love those

they take forever to tell us stuff we already know

but this one had a random air hostess mime with it too so it was ok

:P

2 stigs...

i wonder who they are...

anson again?

no? ok...

how about... erm... lewis hamilton?

no? ok... erm... just tell me :P

it's cam and jordan

me

me take 2

is it sunny or rainy?

correct answer: sunny

mummy and me getting lunch ready

but really stuffing our faces before anyone else :P

me, daddy and cam

eating lunch

and cam with his signature coke

;)

anson drinking coke

you know, coke is illegal

its a class A drug

nah, jokes

but seriously, real cocaine is illegal

ready?

3, 2, 1...

and... GO!

what happened?

ooh...

very serious talk...

policeman to prime suspect...

"you have the right to remain silent, yadda yadda yadda..."

"erm, constable... i just wanted to give you your phone back"

"oh... right."

random people being random?

what!?

i dont know them!!!

bart

did you know he's a policeman?

so he had an advantage over us :(

jordan, anson and cam

the guys

the guys take 2

aunty loraine

is that yummy?

bart, mummy and daddy

i mean, not daddy...

it's saint peter

:P

me and elise

aah boredom

me, jordan, aunty loraine and elise

what are you looking at, boy?

me, jordan, anson and cam

would've been a nicer picture if it wasnt only jordan who noticed a picture was being taken

:S

me and jordan

bffs?

me and jordan take 2

bffs? lol

nah, hes more than that

jordan, anson and i by the delta force sign

cam was too lazy to walk over

jordan looks like a james bond or something

because he's cool like that

best buds forever

and cam is finally in the picture

standing 3 miles away

we dont bite!!!

aunty loraine and elise

"now, missy. if you don't stop misbehaving i am going to have to throw you off the site."

ooh serious talk

:P

elise

you'd better be listening...

you could get arrested or something

that was a very serious subject

"yes... that's nice.... mmm... maybe... oh, thanks... etc"

picture that pushy mother made me put on her just to prove she did something like this

so that everyone can see!!!

lol

~~~~~

after that we went home to change and stuff and went for dinner at uncle harry's:

mummy and daddy

picture perfect

erm... excuse me, sir.

don't mind me, but you don't have a ciggy in your hand

uncle clive and aunty loraine

picture perfect

anson and cam

guys, shut your mouths...

and... erm, open your eyes?

elise and bart

great people

:)

 food

sorry i ran out of things to take pics of

:S

cam and anson take 2

anson, what's so interesting back there?

cam, are you scared of a camera?

because i still got you!

anson and cam the bunny rabbit

and i got you too anson

jordan and uncle clive

aunty loraine, cam trying to hide and anson actually looking this way

:)

me and jordan

i had the best day with you today

me :)

uncle clive, aunty loraine and cam

aaw a mummy's boy?

elise trying to take a pic of cam by himself

but he wouldnt do it

village idiot or not?

my attempt of getting a pic of cam but then i couldnt be bothered and moved the camera

=-="

but pretty good eh?

aunty loraine and cam

finally

unfortunately this wasnt taken by me :(

it was taken by anson

me eating the pancake thing :P

jordan

me and jordan again

did you know, according to his dad, we're getting married

jordan stretching :P

me talking to mummy

jordan smiling like that guy on the darlie toothpaste

:D

uncle clive looking waaay too serious

me and jordan and anson's finger...

well done twat

me again

one of the things on the walls at the golden chef

i think its an embroidery?

xx